Mean People Suck

Every day I try to be a better human being. I believe I am inherently flawed human being, I know that I am quick to take offense, “sensitive” and when I feel wounded I lash back harshly.

One of the things I try to achieve and examine is the concept of forgiveness. And I think part of that is trying to examine my knee jerk reaction to something that has hurt me to see if there is some other way of interpreting what I think has transpired.

It’s a hard goal, made harder by the fact that there have been too many situations were people who have been calling me a friend have done pretty shitty things.

Three close female friends have tried to steal my boyfriend / husband. One bitched about me behind my back, and said things to make me look like an oath breaker. A group of friends dissolved with no real explanation. Its not a good foundation upon which to be trusting and friendly.

I wonder sometimes if people are just inherently mean.

I have been frustrated at school lately with some of the “catty” young ladies in my class. They make snide remarks about some of the teachers, the courses, and of course the other students. I once heard two of them make comments about two girls last year who had to write supplementals. “Ha Ha, they had to write supplementals, what losers.”

I’m sure I am not innocent of this sort of thing, but I do know that I am trying to be aware of it.

Even the “worst” teacher in our school tries his or her hardest. Not everyone is gifted with brilliant teaching skills (or for that matter, fascinating subject matter). However all of them deserve some semblance of respect.
Just because I am doing well in a class does not mean that I am superior to some way to someone who is not doing well.

I don’t quite know were I am going with this.

I suppose I am having a “Lack of faith in humanity” moment, and I’m trying to work past it in my head.