Um… Yeah

Truly, I just don’t get it.

I took a total slacker attitude to this interview. I gave them a sloppy resume. (Found two mistakes in it this morning) Really truly did not give a shit.

They want me.

And that’s good. It is good that I will be able to make some sort of a contribution to the house hold expenses. It’s good that we will not be forced to sell the house. It’s good that we can keep the cats in Kitty litter.

But DAMN!

I know the reasons why finding a job in the field I want to find a job in is so hard. I know that the competition is tough; I know I don’t have 5+ years office admin experience. I know the pay and the hours and the environment and the (feel good about what I am doing with my life) factor are all more attractive. I still can’t help but wish that landing where I want to land was not so frustratingly hard.

I am nonetheless very happy for Roben, who has; with typical ease, beat me to the “Non Profit” punch.

You Go Girl!

So forward I go, and perhaps with any luck My friend Timothy’s prediction will come true. I spoke to him last night about my progress and he came up with the comment. “It will be like adopting”

“Huh?!”

“When a couple frantically wants a baby, and they don’t have one, and then they adopt a kid, all of a sudden the pressure is off and BOOM, they get pregnant! It will be like that, now that the pressure is off all of a sudden offers will come in.”

I hope your right Timothy!

Sigh.

I have been trying to get a “real” job since… Fuck, I don’t even remember when..

Yesterday I spent less than 4 hours wandering around downtown filling out applications forms at Starbucks and other assorted retail outlets.

Today I have an interview at 4pm.

WTF?

Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful that I can get something so that we don’t have to do anything drastic like sell the house, and I am not trying to speak poorly about the fine art of being a barista.

It’s just retail and me… Meh.

I wish that finding a job in volunteer management had been somewhere near this easy.

An afterthought: Watch me blow this interview with my all-too-apparent lack of interest. If I can manage to snag this job I should go back to the stage because I will deserve a fucking Oscar.

*Snicker*

I think I need to take my frustrations out on a poor helpless little tread mill.